People often joke and say I was the “sickest naturopath they’ve ever met”… but living it was no joke. Long before I became a practitioner, I was the patient. I had to recover my health twice from chronic fatigue, and today I want to share what that was like, and what it taught me.
No one knows the journey better, and how to recover, than someone who’s experienced it first-hand.
Where it started
At 17, I had my first bout of EBV (Epstein Barr Virus). At the time, I didn’t realise how significant that would be, or that it would set the path for what followed over the next decade. At the time it seemed like a right of passage, a lot of teens in my year level where contracting it. They all seemed to be off school for a few weeks, but then came back and seemed fine.
I remember how sick I was though. In reality I had been a sickly kid, the type that always had tonsilitis and ear infections (so much so, my tonsils were removed when I was 6). But EBV, that really was another level, I’d never felt so bad before.
Like most people, I was told to rest, recover, and that my body would bounce back. And for a while, it seemed like it did.
But something had shifted, and I just didn’t realise it at the time.
Fatigue that doesn’t go away
After this first round of EBV things seemed fine. I bounced back (although I had lost a lot of weight from not being able to eat from the ulcers in my throat), but other than that, I seemed fine.
Until 3 years later when I got sick again. EBV take two, with pneumonia for good measure. I was just 21 years old at the time.
This was when the chronic fatigue hit. This wasn’t just being tired. It was waking up exhausted, dragging my feet through wet concrete all day, and not feeling rested after sleeping 12 hours at night.
I’d been active, loved to dance and spent 6 nights a week doing so, but all that had to stop as my body just wasn’t behaving like it used to.
I couldn’t think clearly, had no resilience and was catching every virus going around (I even got a warning at work for taking too many sick days). I tried to push through, but the pushing came at a cost.
Being told everything is “normal”
Like many people I now work with, I did the rounds. Tests. Appointments. Different opinions. And over and over again, I heard the same thing: ‘everthing looks normal’.
When I wasn’t improving my doctors words change to ‘you just have to get used to it’. This was also the time in my life where I was living in a mould-ridden rental, developing chronic digestive issues and struggling to keep my weight at a healthy range. Clearly, something was wrong.
Recovery phase one
At this point in my life, my mid-20’s, I didn’t realise that all my health issues were actually linked. I was still trusting doctors and specialists, who were dissecting my health into ‘compartments’… the gut person, the heart person, the neuro guy for headaches. It was many years later I’d work out the links.
But what I did do at this time was stop trusting what they were telling me, and started to forge my own way forward. I took time off work, I rested (properly), supporting my nervous system to finally switch off. I dealt with symptoms as they came up using natural alternatives I found. I changed my diet and removed gluten, dairy and all the triggers I had at the time.
In time I started to come good, but it took about three months before I felt like my energy was coming back. What I did by accident this time (because I didn’t know any better), is I didn’t keep the healing up long enough for it to last long term.
That’s why in my 30’s, chronic fatigue second round hit me.
Different trigger, same pattern
At this point in my life I wasn’ t yet a qualified naturopath, but I was studying. I was a busy ‘stay at home mum’, who was also a ‘work from home mum’, with a FIFO (now ex) husband. I was still getting sick all the time, my gut was a mess and my energy was unreliable, but I didn’t have time to deal with it.. I was so busy taking care of everyone else.
In my early thirties my chronic fatigue (that was never fully healed) was triggered again. I had an acute flare of EBV… 6 weeks later I had Ross River Fever… 6 weeks after that I had Influenza A. My body couldn’t fight through anymore, and chronic fatigue was back.
Falling asleep when I’d sit down for just a few minutes, yet unable to sleep at night. Bones that felt to heavy to carry, and feet that felt like they were dragging through wet concrete.
Thankfully this time, I had some learning behind me and had a better idea of what I needed to do.
Chronic Fatigue round 2
I wasn’t starting from scratch, I’d been through this before, and this time I had knowledge to back it up. I could see what my body was doing, where systems were under strain, what needed to be addressed first.
And I worked through it step by step.
This was not an easy recovery, it took the better part of a few years to get fully back to 100% (plus I got divorced, started a business and supported two spectrum kids througout). But in time I got there, and I know you can too.
Fatigue is never just ‘fatigue’
What I see over and over again, both in my own experience and in clinic, is that fatigue is a signal. It’s the body saying something isn’t working as it should. But unless you look at the full picture, it’s easy to miss what that is.
If you’re struggling with chronic fatigue right now I want you to know I feel for you, it’s a heavy road to travel. But what matters is that you were well once and I do believe you can be well again. Your body knows what ‘well’ feels like, it just needs help to get there.
And given the right support, in the right sequence, with the right approach, it can become healthy and well again.
Is this where you are now?
If this is where you are – dealing with ongoing fatigue, told ‘everything is fine’ (but you know it’s not) or you’ve tried things and haven’t been able to shift it… you are exactly the kind of person I work with.
No need to keep guessing or trying random things. The next step is understanding what is really going on (and to let someone else do the thinking for a change, you deserve a break!).
Together we can work through this properly, step by step. Start with an initial consultation and we’ll map it out together.
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Thanks for reading x
Cassandra Duffill, Naturopath





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